[aaand his voice tightens a bit]

I'm aware that things aren't perfect, but I'm not about to spill my guts to another 'professional' after- everything. I'm not arguing this. I'll look in to it when it's not so-

[fresh. painful. viscreal.]

-blinding.

[there. see. look at him, saying that his judgement needs to calm the fuck down before he makes a decision.]